I live with chronic pain and so use the Spoon theory often to explain my energy levels. To summarize, basically every day you get so much energy or spoons when you start your day.

I usually have four to six books going at the same time. Usually a romance, a fantasy or science fiction, a dark romance, a literary fiction, a mystery/thriller, or something that is part of a series.

I had planned this tattoo when Michaela was alive and long before I met a few others that might be added to it one day, but mostly the stars are from friends I have known almost 25 years

I was clipping my toe nails yesterday. I know, I can’t contain my excitement over that too. 😂 What got my attention is that I am using a set of clippers I have had for over 10 years probably closer to 15.

I was going through some old photos of Michaela and I. I was remembering memories associated to the photos, but it spun off into more and more memories. Miss her so fucking much - miss us holding hands and snuggling on the couch as we watched Star Wars or Lord of the Rings.

I think the DMV gets a bad wrap. Just like attorneys often get a bad wrap. Not every DMV employee is horrible. Not every attorney is a horrible person.

A month of dates. 

I have a spot on the counter where objects that I don’t know what to do with end up. Right now I have a big bowl that captures smaller things, but some objects that end up there

I felt like I need to do an apology because I am having a hard time keeping in touch with people.

For my 50th birthday I was going to get just the word yes. It was just a couple weeks before my birthday that M was diagnosed the first time with cancer.

It is 3 o’clock in the afternoon. I sit in the middle of the bed not on my side, not on her side